Dear Me,

My only wish in this pitiful world is to be love as much as I love the other back. To be able to talk and converse in the same language, to be able to grow together holding hands towards the future, to be able to grow old and look back and reflect on it together. I didn’t dream for a fleeting relationship. I want to have, I want to be with someone who can understand me and I, too will try to understand him.
I want to be with someone who share the same vision as me. The one that can look past my hideous self, my twisted personality and my dark heart.
It is just a wishful thinking but I pray, for whoever going to be my future, please take care of yourself for the both of us. It seems like I’m unable to take care of myself for me.
To mt future self, if you read this again sometime later, remember, that you are worthy of people affection. You may be down right now, as I feel when I write this anecdote for you. I pray that what we feel today will somehow be something pleasant for you to look at. It’s no longer a dark days where you’re brooding over thinga that you dont know.
Hey my future self, take care now. I have been neglecting myself and you will have to carry the consequences now.
Love
Me from the past, 2019