Lexapro My Happy Pills
13/08/2019-31/08/2019

• I was not officially diagnosed with any mental illness but doctor said that i have mild depression and anxiety, and thats of course not good considering that I have been very stressed with work and other things that I shouldn’t stress about.
• So taking lexapro is nothing but happiness for me cause i finally feel like a normal human being and I am truly, in 3 years time feels like normal. Like the old me come back. I am very much delighted by that. I started with 5mg for the first 4 days and then 10mg until 31/98/2019.
• You see, i have an appointment on 26/8 but since i was outstation at that time i cant meet my dr and cant replenish my meds so i just go OKAY WHATEVER LETS FUCKING SEE WHAT GONNA HAPPEN
• lexapro really helped my mood, really help me stay in focus and I kind of feeling so good when I take them. Just that I’m constantly sleepy but its not a major issue. Gain weight and my appetite is fucking me and i got fatter and fatter.

• can i just say i live in hell during this period of time?
• I stopped cold turkey and the withdrawal effects are FUCKING ME IN THE HEAD. Insomniac, sudden breathing problems, overthinking, suicidal there and there but I’m a coward so i usually stop doing them and my weight jumps from 78 to 72 real fast like in a week time sebab less sleep and terrible eating habit
• I have cases where suddenly I’m hyper, doing a lot of things at one time but i cant remember doing them. Or not doing anything, just staying still for few hours, completely blanked out from my surrounding. The only thing that save me from getting caught is that I’m a manipulator. So i just push the blame to everyone else and said i did things but people make it hard for me WHILE ALL THIS TIME I AM THE PROBLEM
• All the things that made happy, it just come like a wave. Sometimes i lost memory of what i am doing, I’m withdrawing myself more and more, and I CANT REALLY REMEMBER THOSE DAYS
• My memory, ability to focus and everything you need to function a member of society was disabled