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posting uneventful events since 2013

Bismillah.

Alhamdulillah, dah selamat tutup Tahun 1 sebagai pelajar degree dengan paper Falsafah dan Teknologi tadi sebagai paper terakhir semester duaaaa. Hah ingat aku nak terobekk ke ?? Takda nak terobek sangat sekarang ni.

#SERABUT

kalau semalam tengah serabut sampai buat interview diri sendiri aca aca artis besar mana ntah, harini aku bombarded lagi dengan permasalahan yang LEBIH mencabar iman aku. Dan otak aku. Dan punca masih sama :Mission To Vietnam.

Hahah.

Jangan start bagi aku ayat cliche ckp yang aku kena usaha kalau nak dapat sesuatu. sebab aku bagi penampar dengan selipar kang baru tau. Sebab apa, aku memang berusaha kat sini. Tapi sejauh mana usaha aku tuh hebat ke tak, Allah jelaa yang mampu ukur.

So semalam, dalam interview tuh, [bole cek kat post yang ini : Menjelang Manghrib ] aku ada bagitau pasal masalah duit kan ? Nak buat passport, medical check up dan sebagainya. So, pagi tadi aku whatsapp TNC. Sebab aku dah bengang sangat dengan semua masalah leceh yang boleh diselesaikn kalau aku kat Sandakan.

Mari aku senaraikan satu persatu.

1. Surat Tawaran
Bodohnya aku kat sini apabila aku tak baca surat tawaran tuh bebaik. Aku just tengok ada nama aku and then aku bahagia gilerr. That's all. Then kemarin aku kena marah dengan officer yang jaga budak2 macam aku sebab uni masih takde kata putus samada aku dapat pergi ke tak. Hoillaaa ~ bengang laa bila dia cakap macm tuh sebab aku mmg dah excited gilerr tambah lagi serabut sebab pasport dan sebagainya tup tup dia cakap uni mungkin TIDAK akan hantar.

so aku pergilaa tanya TNC kitorang. Jawapannnya ????

Esok pukul 8.30 pagi baru tau jawapannya. Dalam wassap tadi, TNC cakap yang bahawasanya pihak uni mungkin tidak akan hantar sebab ada kos bersama yang kena ditanggung. Waddaheelll. Rasa macam nak cekik cekik je kucing bawah blok ni bila dengar pasal tuh.

Konklusi masalah 1 : Esok adalah hari penentu.

2. Passport
Lagi satu bala. Dah semangat tahan lapar sebab passport ni, satu bencana pulok datang.

Pagi tadi, siap pakai light make up lagi. Aku pergi KDN sebab nak buat passport. Aku dah rancang dah. Sejam je buat passport sebab passport ni diperlukan untuk pergi mission. Dorang nak book tiket. so dengan gembiranya aku pergilaa kaunter dan dia cakap ada masalah. Haoiiiiillaa ~

reason dia adalah 
- aku kena ada surat beranak yang ORIGINAL untuk buat passport. Kenapa ini maslaah ? Well sebab aku kena tunggu dua hari untuk surat beranak aku sampai dan aku takde alamat tetap. Lagipun aku taktau lagi aku nak stay mana sepanjang cuti ni. Hence dah jadi satu masalah]

- passport aku paling awal boleh siap seminggu. Hahahahah. Of cos laa ni masalah paling besar sebab aku kena submit passport dan semua yang related tuh pada 26, means aku ada dua hari sahjo ! LOL, 

3. Medical Check Up
Lagi satu yang buat aku serabut,

Money issue aside, aku kena tunggu result darah aku dua minggu ! Padahal waktu aku kat Sandakan, senang je dalam  masa sejam je aku dah siap semua. HhA.


Masalah 2 dan 3 boleh selesai, insya Allah kalau pihak yang tuh bagi exception. Tapi kalau tak, aku kena tarik diri laa ceritanya.

Tak cukup satu, satu lagi datang. Hmm. Mak tak redha kot aku p Vietnam, sebab tuh  banyak sangat halangan dan dugaannya. Lagipun aku dah 'terlembik' sejak datang semenanjung ni. Makin manja sebab aku selesa sangat kot.

Haa, lagi sekali jangan cliche ckp ni dugaan Tuhan dan suruh aku bersabar. sebab aku masih WARAS lagi untuk fikir tuh sendiri. kalau nak bagi kata semangat, bagilaa yang rare dan tak cliche okey ?


[ Lompat laa setinggi mana pun, kita akan kembali ke tanah jugak akhirnya. Jadi jangan terlalu memandang ke atas hingga alpa akan yang di bawah ]


Ayat tak cliche kat atas aku suka. Nak bagi aku kata semangat buat paradox macam tuh kay.


Much love from the troublesome tired almost 21 years old almost lady

//NAR




11:58 PM No comments
Bismillah.

Aku betul betul taktau nak terang macam mana. But here :

Q : Apa yang paling kau rindu setakat ni, semenjak start puasa ?

A: Aaaa. I miss my family the most, then my awesome sisters. I miss the food from Sandakan so much sometimes I really want to go back and ditch everything. Sejak start puasa ni, semalam baru first time aku makan nasi sebab kebetulan study dekat KFC. I buy the 8 ringgit set. Everytime buka posa, aku makan mee hoon without anything in it except halia dan kentang. Sahur pun begitu. Life has been hard since I'm going to go Vietnam and it needs expenses. So I really miss the 'berbuka puasa' theme food.

Q: Do you want to go back ?

A: Hmm, siapa yang dah hilang akal dan tengah merajuk dengan family ja yang tak nak balik Ramadhan dan Syawal ni. Tapi since aku dah nekad nak pergi sana. I will try my best to compress this homesick feeling. Hwaiting ~

Q: Life has been hard since you want to go to Vietnam. What's so hard about  it ?

A: At first it didn't look like its hard. I was so happy got chosen as one of  UTeM representative and I eagerly wait for the letter. But since the letter comes, its been constant battle with my head, heart and it really drained me.

Q: How so ?

A: Aaa, I need to make my passport and it requires money. But I already secure the money but what really hard is that I don't have transportation to go to KDN and the money I have left isnt much and I heard that the medical check up cost me 30 ringgit but right now I only have 120. 100 for passport and 20 is for my expenses. I want to ask for another 50 ringgit from my sister but she just sent me 50 ringgit this morning. The only left from that 50 ringgit is 20 ringgit cause I had to pay for the gas money, of a friend that I always went wherever together. So its really bugging me. I need money to go to hospital, and what left with me is not much. So its really sad.

Q: So your last paper is on tomorrow night ?

A: Yeah and I was planning on going to medical check up on 25th but I don"t have money and passport and medical check up result need to be sent to the admin by 26th so I was thinking about how can I survive this. Also, I need to go to Bangi as early as possible because I agreed to volunteer in a place and I don't have the bus fee and any money to spent.

Q: What is your feeling now ?

A: I feel like I want to rip the offer letter and pack my things and call my sister to take me home. 10 minutes more to buka puasa and I really don't have anything on my table. Not that I don't preapare anything but I can't just spent the money freely since I really need it. Its really pitiful of me and I wonder how my mother would react if she saw me in this poor state.

Q: Is there anything else ?

A: I don't really like the management here cause the letter(the source of turmoil) which should be received still hasn't been followed up so I'm a bit disappointed. They should do something about it but it seem that even the officer got angry saying that he doesn't receive any instruction. When I told him that I want to forward the email, he was like saying that he knows his jobs and said that the letter should be arrive from TOP to LOWEST level of management. I already offer him the letter and he was like no-no. He should receive it if he thought of other people misreable life.

Q: Do you feel misreable now ?

A: Yes. Really really misreable and pitiful. and litte stressed out.

Q: Any final words ?

A: I want to disappear into bubbles or maybe become a balloon and roam freely in this world.


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So you know when you are so stressed out and you always had someone to talk to and then suddenly you are alone ? This kinda thing happened. So this was a little interview on how my life right now. I miss my sisters where I can freely talk about anything and everything. I still couldn't make any best friend here. Because people are so fragile and I really hate it. 

I feel caged in a prison and its really suck. MAYBE I was asking for so much but apa guna kawan kalau hanya boleh ada di sisi kita saat kita senang tapi waktu kita susah dan minta tolong, tiada siapa pun yang membantu.

itu jelaa. ak mampu tulis lebih panjang tapi aku tau, kalau aku tulis more than this, aku akn berbuka sambil lap air mata.


6 Ramadhan//23 Jun
Seri Utama, Ayer Keroh 

- it cannot be seen, it is felt - sadness.


NAR

7:19 PM No comments
Asalamualaikum.

Alhamdulillah, sampai di bulan mulia, bulan Ramadhan. Dan dah masuk puasa yang keempat esok. Sebelum aku membebel mengenai janji yang tak tertunai, marilah sesama kita selami perasaan sedih aku yang tak dapat menyambut Ramadhan bersama family aku pada tahun ini. Aku tahu ramai lagi yang tak spent Ramadhan dengan keluarga disebabkan jarak yang memisahkan.

aku just rasa syahdu sebab selama ni mana pernah berpisah daripada family, tetiba berpisah, Ramadhan tak sambut sama, dan selepas ini, Syawal yang menjelang tiba ni pun aku tak akan sambut dengan dorang jugak.

Sebab ?

Sebab aku akn menyertai Misi Sukarelawan di Vietnam. Yang ini nantilaa aku bebelkan.

Janji Tak Tertunai.

Apa tuh ? Sebenarnya post aku sebelum ni aku ada janji nak cerita pasal semester satu di UTeM tapi end up tak cerita hapa kan. Naa itulaa janji yang tak tertunai.

Dan sekarang aku nak study tuk finals. Ada 3 paper lagi Advance Electric, Magnestim dan FST. Insya Allah nanti aku ceritakan.

Janji lagi..

#nampak tak, saja je nak post pasal dapat g Vietnam. kahkahakah.




Mak, I miss you so much cuma mak selalu tuduh aku tak rindu. Ak tak tunjuk sebab kalau aku tunjuk, hari2 mata aku bengkak sebab nangis tak sudah. Sapa tak rindu family weyh ? lagi lagi aku anak bongsu yang smpai sekarang tido ngan mak.


okelaa. Esok paper advance paper paling  gila dalam hidup aku.

ciao.


#NAR
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