'Please let me go if you don't want me'

Aftermath

To think that I’m so weak towards everything. 

I woke up trying to ignore all the pain. 

I successfully did but then again, it gradually build up and makes me feel so suffocated.

If this is the price for walking away from the people you love then I think I will have to endure this for a little while longer. It’s okay, I’ve done this before and I’m going to do it again.

Although the pain gets stronger everyday, I will endure it. Just like I always did. Just like I always do. The pain will go away sooner or later and I will be good again. But I hope sooner comes faster.

Even if Im not going to feel good anytime soon, I wish I am slightly better compared to now. It hurts, it hurts so much and I really can’t face the pain. It’s too much for me.

Someone please take the pain away. I promise I will be a good girl just take these painful feelings away. I don’t want any miracle just something, someone who can wipe this pain slowly until I get better.

Nazri, it really hurts. I am really hurt by all these. I’m not as strong as I thought I would be. It’s painful. It really is.

Nazri, why did I do that I deserve to be pained this way? 

Do I ever hurt you? 

What did I do wrong? 

What have I done that I was never chosen by the people I love the most? 

Why do they only be with me when they feel like they need me and then throw me away. 

It hurts. 

This feeling that I have.

Can you take all these pain away?

Can anyone take this painful feelings away?

Please...

I’m not ..

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