It hurts so bad, to be treated as an option and then become someone’s else rebound.

It hurts so so bad when the only thing you want is to be happy but at the end of the day, even happiness shy away from your life.

It hurts so so so bad. To once again believe that everything would be better but at the end, things were never better, I just mistakenly saw some bright light as rainbows.

It hurts so so so so bad. Because even when I thought that there’s more, it was just a fleeting moment of feelings that were never there. It hurts. It hurts so bad.

and I tell myself over and over again that things will be better. 

It’s okay, its not my fault.

It’s okay, it’s a blessing to feel sad. 

Yet my mind always wanders to the dark grey areas of my heart where nothing is fine. 

Everything is in disarray. 

Everything is in chaos.

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