//depression&anxiety

When I started telling people I have attacks (anxiety attack), everyone stares at me with disbelief. Why should I have anxiety?
That’s why I stop telling people and just stop talking altogether about it to others. People said, it’s just in your mind. You need to do this, you need to do that. Trust me, I have done everything that I can think of, and most of everything people have said to me.
Did it stop?
You know the answer.
No, it never stop.
Will it stop?
Maybe.
It’s been 3 years. My anxiety attack comes in many form but the most recent and mostly occurred to me is when my body shut itself. I can’t function like a normal person. I’m sick but even doctor can’t tell me why and what. I either sleep or don’t sleep at all. I binge eating or I don’t eat at all. I worked until my eyes blurry and my head spinning or I just sit down and stare at my works.
When it hit me, it usually comes slowly and then all at once.

The first sign would be I can’t do simple chores, I forgot things. When this happened, I just brush it off as me, being lazy. Not until I can’t make my own bed in the morning, the fact I can’t do my laundry, the fact I can’t sit still. The light annoys me, the sound around me annoys me. The people annoys me. I stop replying to people, I stop talking and all I want is to be with myself. Drowning inside the feeling of helplessness and looking at the abyss as it stares back at me.
Then the others follow.
Migraine
Gastric
Insomnia
Back pain
Coughing
Until I collapse with blankness in my head